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Wednesday, 11 January 2017

Evolve Your Mind - Breaking Free of Illness & Disease



“To evolve is to overcome the conditions in our life by changing something about ourselves.”

I started the last month of 2016 by overextending and did not recover for the entire month.  I was sick on my birthday, on Christmas and New Years, it was a fitting end to a tumultuous and oftentimes painful year.

It was just the impetus I needed to change my mind and I did. I learned my lessons, I healed, I grew in dignity and grace.  I can honestly say I am a different person than I was a year ago.

Now it's time for the evolution, 2017 is the year for a renewed body to go with the renewed mind...

Thinking the way you Feel? Or Feeling the way you Think...

“To change is to think greater than how we feel.”

I’ve been listening to Dr Joe Dispenza who credits his mind for an amazing recovery from a debilitating spine injury.  I like the fact that he brings a scientific perspective to something that I have always known.  The human mind is a powerful thing, powerful enough to shift the forces within our body and outside of it.

He speaks about the cycle of thought and feeling that conditions the body into ingrained habitual responses.  So you feel unwell and you think you’re unwell.  Because you think you’re unwell, well .. you feel unwell. And because you feel unwell...

It seems perfectly reasonable, if your body feels unwell .. well?!?

My walk with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS) has brought this cycle powerfully into my awareness.  At the start of this journey I knew I had a powerful mind, I knew I was unbounded, I could handle anything, beat anything.  That was eight years ago.  

In that time I learned not to push through the limitations of my condition because my body would allow me to do it, then it would shut down for days, even weeks. I learned to pander to the disease, because the consequences of doing otherwise were so debilitating. 
Over time I started to feel powerless, and over time my body’s ability to function diminished so I was powerless.  And I felt powerless.  And I was...

I Divorced My Disease

“Personal change takes an intentional act of will, and it usually means that something was making us uncomfortable enough to want to do things differently.”

I have been divorcing my disease.  I have distanced myself from my illness, I dropped out of my support group, and I stopped talking to my friends about my illness.  I bless the wonderful souls I met on the journey who were always there to pick me up, to encourage and to empathize.  But I had to be strong enough to walk away from the support of my illness and stand alone in a place of anticipating and celebrating my wellness

I set out to reprogram the thought-feeling cycle.  The moment I come to consciousness in the morning I remind myself that I am healthy and strong.  I take the time to experience that in my head, reveling in the feeling of my body bending and stretching and moving with agility and strength and endurance and grace.

Sometimes as I go about my day, my body presents me with ‘evidence’ that what I am saying is just not true.  But I am undaunted, sometimes when I am overcome by fatigue, when the world starts to spin and the muscles start to fail, if I just remind myself ‘I am healthy and strong’ I experience relief,  I can push through just a little bit more.

And on the days when I’m in bed barely able to lift my head, when pain racks my body and my emotions are all over the place, I soothe myself.  I bless my body for how valiantly it is working to find it’s balance.  I bless myself, I encourage myself, I love myself and I accept that my recovery is a foregone conclusion. On those days almost without exception, regardless of what is happening in my body, I’m still able to be happy and hopeful and at peace. 

I’ve managed to change my mind.

Belief Kills & Belief Cures

“I spent three hours a day, morning, noon, and evening, in self-hypnosis and meditation. I visualized, with the joy of being totally healed, that my spine was fully repaired. I mentally reconstructed my spine, building each segment. I stared at hundreds of pictures of spines to help me perfect my mental imagery. My focused thoughts would help direct the greater intelligence already at work to heal me.

Dr Joe speaks of studying people across the world who have experienced spontaneous remission from a range of diseases.  He found that they had these four things in common...

        1 - Belief in a higher power

Have you ever considered how what an incredible machine the human body is? 

Years ago when I was carrying my son, I discovered the incredible wonder of human life.  It was so amazing to watch what started out as blob on the ultrasound develop into a tiny embryo with recognizable limbs, then into a baby who could move and yawn and suck it’s thumb and then to see him come out of my body and cry and smile and crawl and walk.

As I have walked with CFS, a mystifying condition that spans neurology, endocrinology, rheumatology, psychology and heaven knows what else, I have come again to recognize the incredible complexity of this vessel that we call our body.

There are so many medical specialties and after the brightest minds go through years of  rigorous training, then come out and ‘practice’ for decades, and there is so much they still do not know about how the human body works.  If the doctors don’t know, who does?

“The power that made the body is the power that heals the body. This intelligence knows how to maintain order among all of the cells, tissues, organs, and systems of the body because it created the body from two individual cells.”

I accept that my body knows. The power the energizes and vivifies the body, the energy that keeps the heart beating and the lungs breathing and the blood circulating,  the same energy that every second of every day keeps so many systems in balance, that energy knows.

      2 - My thoughts and reactions to my life created my disease

“Motivated as they were by serious illnesses both physical and mental, the people I interviewed realized that in thinking new thoughts, they had to go all the way. To become a changed person, they would have to rethink themselves into a new life”

Dr Joe speaks of meta-cognition, the ability to observe yourself, to understand your own thoughts, make inferences and identify a plan of action.  This is probably the most important step on the healing journey. 

Almost a year ago I wrote a book “EmbracingProsperity By Changing Your Mind”. I’ve tried for many years to write, I have many unfinished manuscripts in progress yet this book flowed through me in six days.  I knew it was inspired.  I did not know then that it was a roadmap.. for me.

“To begin changing their attitudes, these individuals began to pay constant attention to their thoughts. In particular, they made a conscious effort to observe their automatic thought processes, especially the harmful ones.”

Changing my mind has not been an easy process, it’s not a process that will ever complete.  But it was a necessary evolution.  I had to recognize how my habitual thought patterns and responses were generating and regenerating patterns of stress in my body, emotions and circumstances.

I had to let go of victimhood in order to embrace my personal power. I had to stop judging myself and others so harshly.  I had to release anger and embrace forgiveness.  I had to develop grace, I had to live grace.

     3 - The choice to be happy

“If you are consuming large amounts of energy in response to stress, there is nothing left over for rebuilding, repairing and restoring”.

Some years ago I did some tests and the doctor said that my cortisol levels were through the roof.  I had been living in a state of negative excitation for years and my body was beginning to fail.  High blood pressure, atherosclerosis, diabetes and on and on.  It is said that 75% of patients who show up in an Emergency Room show up with stress related conditions.

Medical literature speaks about the ‘stress cascade’, from the secretion of the stress hormones cortisol, adrenaline and noradrenaline, to the response of the pituitary which tells the body systems to slow down so that your energy can be directed toward the perceived threat. To the  adrenal fatigue, you’re exhausted, your metabolism slows, your body triggers cravings, so you consume lots of carbs, which then starts a blood sugar cascade, then your liver and kidneys start to become stressed, then your heart and before you know it you’re in your doctor’s office wondering why you feel like death warmed over.

And a really simple way to break this cycle is to be happy.  Scientists have proven that if you simply choose to smile, even if you don’t feel like it, you trigger the release of hormones that support happiness.  Dr Joe references scientific experiments that show that joy actually activates & deactivates specific genes in our bodies.  Science also has proven that joy activates chemical responses in our bodies which not only produce ‘feel good’ chemicals such as oxytocin and dopamine, but also neutralize the deadly cortisol cascade.

Being happy is essential to the maintenance of vibrant health and well-being.  I am learning to be happy no matter what.

     4 - Persistence and Repetition

“Nerve cells that fire together, wire together.  Conscious thoughts, repeated often enough, become unconscious thinking.”

Neuroscience tells us that if you fire the same neural circuits over and over they become more enriched and enhanced and sprout new connections. Over time these stronger connections become your default pathway, your ‘learned’ response.  The advice to ‘fake it ‘til you make it’ is not just flippant social commentary, it is based on scientific fact.

“I’m not going to get up until I feel like a different person”

The people who have managed to transform their lives in meaningful ways, have discovered in their journey that persistence was key.  Dr Joe says that in his recovery he did a daily practice of visualizing the regeneration of his spine, sometimes it would take two to three hours but he refused to stop until he felt he had pictured it fully.  Within weeks his spine was healed.

If you want to create radical change in your life you have to think and act in new ways, you have to be persistent, you have to be consistent, you have to hold fast to your vision, you have to prioritize your goal and you have to back it with your words and actions every day, for as many days as it takes.

I am Healthy & Strong,  It Is Done!

“Within a short time, all the physical symptoms associated with her illness disappeared. Sheila had healed herself of a debilitating disease. More important, she had also freed herself from the chains of her self-imprisonment.

In divorcing my disease, by quitting my support group, by choosing to stop talking about my illness, by focusing on my wellness I was actually removing myself from the environment that would trigger the old responses, allowing my new thoughts to craft new responses and to reinforce these in my brain and my body. 

By choosing to deal with my personal legacy of pain, by healing childhood wounds, by letting go of negative emotions I was creating the atmosphere for my wellbeing, my prosperity to grow and flourish.

And my choosing to master my own mind, I was unlocking the door.

I did not know that that was what I was doing, I was simply walking as I was lead.  You see this is a spiritual journey for me and it is proving to be an incredible unfolding.

“I just knew I was better, I don’t know how I knew I just did. I knew I was changed”

Many people share their journey after they have overcome but I choose to share my journey as I walk through it.  Because I believe the outcome is already determined.

Author’s note

This post is inspired by the work of Dr Joe Dispenza, all quotes in this article are from his work, including his book “Evolve Your Brain – The Science Of Changing Your Mind”.

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I bless you, I bless your journey and I am so happy to be a part of it.  May this be the year that you begin to change your life by changing your mind.

Friday, 19 February 2016

Living Beyond Your Limitations


"I believe I can Fly, I believe I can touch the sky" - R Kelly

As I write I am pushing through the effects Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.  I had my nails done yesterday, today I suffer the consequences.  I am propped up in bed with a pillow keeping my head upright, my body does not have the energy to hold my head up this morning.

This is my life.  For a long time I thought my life was over, now I know it is just beginning...

Barriers Were Made For Busting


I struggled to work with CFS and it wasn't always pretty but I managed to pull it off for five years. Folks actually thought I was making up my illness because to them I was sharp, efficient and on the ball! 

They did not see the many days when I would prop my elbows on the desk so I could hold my head up.  Or the many times I would read and re-read an email before hitting send because CFS causes words to scramble in your head (yup, and I choose to be an author. lol).  They did not see the phase I went through where I would search for pictures on the internet to clarify what I was reading because my ability to comprehend words was severely impaired.  They could not see how I would work for one day and then be totally bedbound for three days while building up the energy to work another day.  They saw my results, they had no idea what it took to produce them.

This taught me an important lesson.  You can push through anything if you are determined to do it.  You can live beyond your limitations, no matter what they are.

You Don't Have To See the Barrier To Break It


A dear friend of mine in college was my first introduction to living beyond your limits.  He had lost his sight as a teenager.  When we chummed around in college I could never had imagined the hurdles he had crossed to get there.  He had dropped out of high school and became a poultry farmer, he had been rejected multiple times when he tried to continue his education but he refused to let his disability stop him.  He went on earn multiple degrees, he became a Minister of State and is now president of the (Jamaican) Senate and continues to be a vocal advocate for persons with disabilities.


See No Limits, Hear No Limits, Speak No Limits


Helen Keller lived in a time when women were largely viewed as powerless (1880-1968), yet she was an outspoken advocate for women's suffrage,  labor rights and socialism.  She was a prolific author and public speaker.  She was awarded the 'Presidential Medal of Freedom' and inducted into the 'National Women's Hall of Fame'.

Helen Keller was blind, deaf and dumb.

"Helen Keller spoke of the joy that life gave her. She was thankful for the faculties and abilities that she did possess and stated that the most productive pleasures she had were curiosity and imagination. Keller also spoke of the joy of service and the happiness that came from doing things for others . . . “ - Wikipedia

When I read her story I wondered 'how?!?'.  I can't imagine what it took to unlock the boundaries of a the cage imposed by a lack of the major senses that we use to absorb, interpret and communicate.  Much harder for me to grasp how she overcame the limitations society would have imposed based on her gender as well as her disabilities.  But I am most impressed by her message.  Joy within and despite her circumstances.  Gratitude.  Service. 

Helen Keller walked the talk against incredible odds.

You Can Stand Tall, Even If You Can't Stand

Franklin D Roosevelt (FDR) contracted polio in the prime of his life and lost the use of his legs.  He would later become one of America's most popular presidents, holding the office for a record 12 years.

"He laboriously taught himself to walk short distances while wearing iron braces on his hips and legs by swivelling his torso, supporting himself with a cane. He was careful never to be seen using his wheelchair in public, and great care was taken to prevent any portrayal in the press that would highlight his disability" - Wikipedia

What impresses me about FDR's story is his refusal to identify with his disability.  It is said he always stood upright when he appeared in public, a feat which he accomplished with the support of his aides or his sonsHe was not able to stand on his own, but he was determined to stand tall, and he did. 

FDR stood tall for over 20 years after losing the ability to stand on his own and he changed the world in the process.

Dancing With The Stars


I saw Amy Purdy's compelling story on OWN's 'Super Soul Sunday' and I was taken by the grace and beauty of this young lady, who had no legs but who chose to dance.  She has been a paralympic snowboarder, a finalist on 'Dancing With the Stars' and a speaker in Oprah's 'Life You Want' tour.

"Snowboarding and travelling the world—that's the dream Amy Purdy had always set for herself. So, at age 19, after losing both of her legs (and very nearly her life ) as the result of a severe case of bacterial meningitis, Amy refused to let new challenges and negativity get in the way of her dreams. The double amputee not only vowed to continue snowboarding but also went on to win world titles” – Oprah.com


What many young women would have taken as a crushing end to life as they knew it, this resilient young woman took as an opportunity to literally soar to new heights.

 If Your Mind Is All You Have, Use It


I have long been inspired by the story of Stephen 'Steve' Hawking who is a well know theoretical physicist.  He suffers from a rare form of Lou Gehrig's disease which has gradually paralyzed him.

At first he refused to use a wheelchair, then became known for being a wild wheelchair 'driver'.  He eventually lost the ability to operate his chair independently.  He lost his speech and learned to 'speak' through a computerized word synthesizer, which he would operate with his hand.  Then he lost the ability to use his hand, he now communicates using a single cheek muscle.

 "Hawking was, however, fiercely independent and unwilling to accept help or make concessions for his disabilities. He preferred to be regarded as "a scientist first, popular science writer second, and, in all the ways that matter, a normal human being with the same desires, drives, dreams, and ambitions as the next person." - Wikipedia

Despite his limitations Steve Hawking has earned an impressive set of accolades including being director of research in the Centre of Theoretical Cosmology at the University of Cambridge, receiving the Presidential medal of freedom which is the highest civilian award in the US and authoring 'A Brief History of Time' which was on the British Sunday Times best-seller list for a record-breaking run of 237 weeks. Oh, and he's been married twice and fathered three children.

I have thought of Steve Hawking often as I struggled to come to terms with the limitations of my condition.  I still cannot fully comprehend the strength of spirit that it has taken to project outward from a body so totally devastated by physical disability but I am inspired by it.

Life May Break You,  But It Can't Break You


In my book I mention the story of Ramona Pierson who was hit by a drunk driver.  The car crushed her face, throat, heart, lungs and legs.  She was placed into a medically induced coma for 18-months, and was awakened by a heart-attack.  

She woke up blind and so badly mangled she was unable to walk, talk or even eat.  Doctors rebuilt her through more than 50 surgeries giving her a plastic nose, a new eye, lots of titanium for bones and some pieces taken from cadavers.  She eventually regained her sight (after eleven years of blindness).  She earned a PhD in neuroscience.    She became a world class athletic competitor.  She learned to develop software and created two amazing tech start-ups which have made her a multi-millionaire.

When I read that story I made up my mind never to complain again.  Ramona was literally broken and somehow she managed to pull the pieces of herself back together, she had to learn new ways of living and of being but she embraced her lessons and used them to effect meaningful change in the world.

You Don't Need Legs To Climb Mountains

“I climbed the top knowing that I'd experienced an epiphany.. My answer lay in the man next to me at the summit. Tajiri had been a porter on the mountain before a rockslide took his leg. We bought him a light prosthesis that fit well. When he returned to the mountain he said to the other porters, ‘You never thought you'd see me here again. Well I'm back.’" - Chris Waddell

Mt Kilimanjaro at 19,340 feet high is the highest mountain in Africa.  Each year thousands of the fittest and the bravest pit themselves against the mountain in an attempt to prove their strength and fortitude.  The mountain is cruel, the air is thin, it is cold, the terrain is steep.  Many have died trying to take the mountain.

Meet Chris Wadell who not only took on the mountain and won, but he did it without legs.  Waddell was an accomplished athlete until he was paralyzed in a skiing accident.  The accident only slowed him down.

Chris is a record holding paralympic skier, an inductee into the paralympic hall of fame and a nationally acclaimed motivational speaker.  He is also the first person to climb Mt Kilimanjaro on a handcycle.

Chris's story to me is about finding a way.  Yes, doors close and sometimes you don't get to do what you want to do in the way you want to do it.  But if you are determined enough you will find a way.

Where There Is A Will, There Is A Way


All the people I have mentioned here lived 'normal' healthy lives before the course of their existence was changed by physical disability. 

The psychological trauma of having health and then losing it can be immense and to some insurmountable.  Yet these people have proven by accomplishing in their lives far more than their peers would even dream of accomplishing, that their limitations are irrelevant.  

These people have used their challenges to inform their contribution to the world, through advocacy, through books, through creation of new technologies to help those who come behind to live fuller, richer and more accomplished lives.

These people don't get to walk away from their limitations, they get to deal with them every day, they deal with the pain and frustration of working with bodies that are no longer what they used to be and still they make their mark on the world, despite their limitations.

Perhaps your limitation is not physical. Perhaps it is financial, perhaps it comes in the form of addiction, perhaps your limitation is due to culture or race or body size or gender.  Perhaps your limitation is psychological.  Does it really matter? 

Can your limitations compare to those of the people I have mentioned here, and if the can, well.. they did it, what are you waiting for?

Inspiration Links

* I am in no way affiliated with the sites that I link to here.  They have inspired me, I hope that they will inspire you too.


An unexpected place of healing : http://www.ted.com/speakers/ramona_pierson

Author’s note

This post is inspired by my book Embracing Prosperity By Changing Your Mind. I hope to persuade you that you are worthy of all the blessings that you desire in life and that nothing can stop you from claiming them, if you simply change your mind.

In the book I share my own experiences and walk you through activities and exercises to help you through every phase of your journey to claim the life you desire.  It would be my pleasure to share a free gift with you, if you would like to receive an excerpt from my book just click here  and with subject "I want a free gift", be sure to include which topic is most useful to you.

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I bless you, I bless your journey and I am so happy to be a part of it.  May this be the year that you begin to claim the best that life has to offer.